I'm having to change my role on the club, I'd thought I'd float it as a topic.
I think I'd always secretly hoped I'd bow out like the legendary Phil Milner, he was doing a private class in his OAP bungalow, the 2 guys left, Phil sat down to watch the Olympics and had a heart attack.
I managed the heart attack, no problem, passed that one with flying colours, I've got through the rehab, of course life is never linear so the curve is the return of the cancer and chemo.
There's no way I feel like teaching, but fortunately I've 2 very good 4th Dans I have complete faith in, if I'm brutally honest I'm redundant, for me it's always been a benign autocracy - I shout and they jump.
I never envisaged myself being a smiley grandad figure sat in a chair, or like Phil, coming in on 2 sticks shouting in Japanese and terrifying the kids.
So how do I see my role?
That hill back to fitness looks a tad steep right now and even if I got fit would the guys be happy back in line?
I suppose leave the guys to take it in whatever direction they chose to go, I never wanted it to remain unchanged but stepping back is not going to be easy.
I'm quite intrigued by finding technology that might improve fitness and training, perhaps that's my role.