I've stopped training and I'm debating if I should ever go back.
I started Karate after finding myself in a few situations where self defence and confidence would have been useful. Now, I've made it to black belt yet still feel that if confronted in a situation that could end with me getting hurt, I'd do nothing and end up on the floor.
In other words, I still have no confidence in my abilities, especially when physically applying my techniques. I even get nervous during bunkai.
I've read into some self defence books including some of Geoff Thompson's work. Something that worried me is the "3 second fight". Why spend all this time learning all these different techniques when most fights are over in an instant? Especially when teachers profess that their art is "traditional" and for self defence.
I've never had a fight and never even been punched and I never want to! But I can't help but feel disillusioned with Karate...in my club we've never even sparred. The closest we come is pad work and controlled bunkai, and that's not often. A lot of focus is placed on kata alone.
This is not an attack on Karate, I love it. I'm just wondering if I am practicing for the right reasons. I feel like I'm losing my way a little. I STILL don't feel like i'm getting what I need from it.